the grief feelings

Unfortunately, society does not generally recognise miscarriage as the death of a child which must be followed by a period of grieving, but many of us who have been through the experience know otherwise. If this is your first miscarriage, you may be surprised by the intensity of your feelings.

The pain of grief is caused by the loss of something we have bonded to, and the stronger this bond, the deeper the pain. Studies show that the mother usually begins bonding with the baby from very early pregnancy, although many of us weren't even aware of it so the pain of this grief often comes as a shock. As the acceptance of the loss grows, the pain diminishes.


  "I felt in limbo, time had no meaning, nothing was more important than to stay in this space. I felt as if I was grieving not only for the lost child but for some part of me that had died as well." Vonney  

"It is as if an emotional umbilical cord formed between the baby and my soul at the same time as the physical one. Just as when my babies miscarried and the placenta was prematurely ripped from my body leaving a physical wound, the emotional umbilical cord was also torn away leaving my soul wounded. Although they were similar, my body healed more quickly than my soul." Alexandra
 

Your feelings will probably include the following: shock, denial, anger, guilt, depression, and sometimes bargaining (such as trying to do charitable acts or relationship reconciliations). There is no real sequence except for a final acceptance. Even after we have dealt with these feelings, they can recur, especially around dates and other personal memories, but will gradually diminish in intensity. Although guilt is a normal part of grief, in miscarriage it plays a much greater role. We want to reassure you that nothing you inadvertently did or didn't do caused the death of your baby if you had a non-viable pregnancy. Exercises like bending, stretching, carrying heavy weights or having sex would not have made any difference otherwise there would be many more miscarriages. (see our list of ‘why miscarriages happen ’) Some people feel this was a punishment from God, but this was an act of nature. We all tend to want to blame some-one, especially when we don’t have answers.

It is normal and healthy to grieve following a loss and grief is referred to as "the healing feeling". It varies greatly for each of us but by three to six months you should be feeling more like your old self, even if not quite the same. If it is taking longer, or you feel obsessed by your loss, we recommend counselling, especially if you have had recurrent miscarriages.

Repressing our feelings by taking sedatives or alcohol are tactics we can use to prevent ourselves from feeling pain. While initially they seem to deaden it, they really just slow down the grieving process so that it drags on unnecessarily.

Grief healing means refocusing. It does not mean forgetting or making our memories insignificant. Dates can still be remembered and be special for you, though hopefully as time goes by, you will experience less pain and more acceptance of your loss or losses. You will recover and you will be fine.



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